Is this not the perfect song?????? I heard it tonight, I know it is old, but it’s so beautiful…

There comes a time when you realise exactly how much you loved him but fuck, also, how much you hate him…..

My ex is in my close circle of friends. He is sweet, charming and everything anyone could ask for, the problem is, the lies……… and not the type of lies that are ‘white lies’ and you can ignore…….huge, enormous, gigantic lies that even a 4 year old would come out with….

i.e Did you see the dolphin fly across the road?

Anyway, it has been a week. I’m still heartbroken, but getting over him, anyway, tonight he comes out with all of us, and thirty minutes later informs us he will ‘brb’ , he is going to get ‘Tina’ , his NEW girlfriend, ‘booty call’, playmate?

My reaction : : : : : ‘ SHOCK :O’ ….. ‘is he really going to bring her here?’

Anyway, better still, he didn’t return…….

So, for all of thirty, forty minutes, I’m thinking….. ‘do I shake her hand’ ?

‘do I smile’ ? ‘ Am I expected to speak to her’ ???????????

I would fucking think and hope no………. but … the huge problem is, he is in my ‘circle of friends’ …so if he had no problem going to bring her tonight .. is he going to do it in the near future????????????????????????

This is waaaaaay to hard… I duno what to do..